Being a mother is joyful and hard work. Its one of my greatest accomplishments out of life. What motherhood taught me was strength, courage, and wisdom. Hey that’s the title of one India Arie’s song (love her music!!!).
Strength in motherhood is the birth or bringing the child into the world that is unsheltered, big and cold. As a mother we have to be strong and steadfast in our faith or beliefs whatever it is to protect our children from the hidden dangers that the world behold. Motherhood definitely has made me strong and has given me the strength to protect my children at any cost.
Courage in motherhood means making the common mistakes in being a parent and allowing yourself to learn from those mistakes. As a mother we only learn what we were taught. But what if what we learned growing up is not something you want to practice as a mother? It’s okay to change your parental style and customize it to your satisfaction. Accepting and embracing change is courageous in motherhood.
Wisdom in motherhood is passing on your experience through the mistakes and achievements made as being a mother. It’s okay to show and tell your children that being a mom is not always perfect and we don’t always have the answer but we will have the answer before bedtime. (smile) Pass along the knowledge of what you learned being a mother.
For me, when my children are sleeping and I am winding down for the night, I look at them reminiscing on their births. With my oldest (my son), I was going on 19 and was so nervous. It was so funny during the labor process (I promise I will write about it). When it was over, my mom asked me will I do it all over again, I told her “yes.” Now fast forward 13 years later, I had a little girl. My mom asked me again will I do it again, I told her “heck no I am DONE!” I love my babies but the age difference took a major toll on me lol. But I love being a mother and I will still have them both again just not adding any more children into the family, too old. (ha ha ha) This is one of my joyful moments of motherhood.
It is dark! I am alone in my thoughts. Nothing depressing just random ideas passing by. I can’t make out what all these thoughts mean or how to interpret these thoughts but I need to get it together. I am struggling to gather and collect things. I see this one particular thought in my mind that has my mind racing, the thought of what road to take in my life. I have to admit, when I was younger, I had no clue what I wanted to do so I made some “questionable changes” in my life and pretty much wasted so much time. Now that I am older, I am on the same boat of uncertainty. I really need to figure this ish out….
As I turned over to change the thoughts of uncertainty, my eyes open! I am blessed to see a new day and have another chance to figure out where I am going in life. I didn’t drop everything for nothing to pursue my passion! I have a purpose! I just need to let today lead the way and pray that I live to see tomorrow so I can see the path I am destined to follow. This is my gift!
When I think of yesterday, it becomes bittersweet. My yesterday can range from literally yesterday to yesteryear. Some yesterdays I block out because it be too painful or something I wish to forget about and move forward. I have a hard time trying to get over my yesterdays and move forward which causes me to stumble and fall. I have such a hard time moving ahead and letting go!
I try to let go in every way possible and the only way for me to really get over is if I #hashtag a song with something or an emotion I am going through (#yesterdaybyMaryMary). This song is so powerful and true to me especially the part when Erica of Mary Mary sang,
I decided that I cried my last tears yesterday….
Boy when she hits that high note, it sends chills up and down my spine because I can feel the power in song. I need to let things go and cry my last tears and leave it in yesterday! The message in crying your last tears resonate so much truth and uplifting emotions because we all are going to cry but after crying is laughter. Laughter solves everything and even though life has some pain and misfortune, there are some goodness that can come out of life the moment you let go of yesterday. I can testify to that and today, I am smiling and so happy and free because I let go of yesterday.